For skateboarders, their sport means so much more than
rolling around on a nicely shaped plank and four urethane wheels. It’s a way of
life, a metaphorical act, an artistic endeavor, radical self-expression; it’s a
survival mechanism, a way to create order in a world that doesn’t always make
sense. Whatever significance a particular individual attaches to the act, it
goes so far beyond kickflips and board slides, past concrete banks and
handrails.
Bing Liu’s documentary, Minding the Gap,
encompasses all of this, and so much more. He filmed himself and his friends,
Zack and Kiere, over the course of ten years. The footage shows them honing
their chops, but also growing up in a dying, hardscrabble rust-belt town.
Playing out like a real-life Boyhood, we watch these kids
grow up and bear witness to their evolution. Along the way, they grapple with
race and masculinity, struggle to make ends meet and survive on a daily basis,
and try to escape seemingly inescapable cycles of violence and abuse. It’s as
earnest and honest and heartfelt a film as I’ve seen in a long time, and it’s
all wrapped up and framed as a love letter to skateboarding.
Maybe Minding the Gap hits me more than
other people because I more or less was these kids. I grew up in a blue collar,
working class town in the midst of an economic downturn—though not to this
degree—and wiled away countless hours rolling around on concrete as a mechanism
for avoiding other realities. My main form of recreation was trespassing for
fun and entertainment. We were bored and rebellious and looking for freedom and
expression and things we couldn’t even put names on.
My friends and I used skateboarding the same way these kids
do. If things sucked, we could always go skate and somehow that made it a
little better. It didn’t fix anything, but it helped; there’s a Zen and clarity
and perspective to be found. When things were awesome, we did the same thing.
It was how we celebrated and how we mourned, how we reveled and how we
commiserated. It’s what you do when you feel good and you’re soaring, it’s what
you do when you feel like shit and you’re drowning. There’s a shot of one of
Kiere’s decks, on the griptape he wrote, “this device cures heartbreak,” and
its truth is deafening. There’s a reason every skateboarding movie, including
this one, has an angry, cathartic skate montage. Sometimes you go skate because
it’s the only thing you can do.
Skateboarding is a sport or passion or way of life—whatever
you call it, however you define it, whatever it means to you, it’s all of those
things—that attracts outsiders, people who don’t fit, or don’t want to fit,
anywhere else. I’ve seen it time and again, kids form their own packs, their
own families, which is precisely how Bing, Kiere, and Zack operate. All three
come from fucked up families where they dealt with a significant level of
abuse. As Bing, talking to Kiere from behind the camera, says, “I’m making this
film because I saw myself in your story.”
These kids form a bond as a survival mechanism, and over the
course of Minding the Gap, we watch their stories unfold.
And it’s not always easy. Kiere struggles with his racial identity, with what
it means to be black, both in the larger society and especially in a subculture
that’s predominantly white, where his friends don’t necessarily understand what
he’s been through and where he’s coming from. Always smiling and laughing, in
one moment he points out how he keeps his license, registration, and proof of
insurance on his dashboard of his car, so he never has to reach for it and give
a cop a reason to shoot him. With a dismissive chuckle, he says, “I can die
real easily,” and it’s chilling.
Zack’s story can be difficult to watch. On one hand, he’s
this charismatic goof, a rowdy kid looking for a good time. On the other, the
disappointment with life weighs him down, feeling like he’s never done anything
he wanted to do and never wanted to do anything he’s supposed to do. He has a
kid at a young age, and with a volatile relationship, gets caught up in an ugly
cycle of violence, domestic abuse, and alcoholism.
For the most part, Bing lives behind the camera—its own
coping mechanism—though we hear his voice frequently. But at one point, he
hands the camera off and interviews his mother about the abuse the two of them
and his half-brother endured at the hands of his stepfather. I don’t know, I
can’t even put into words how raw and visceral a moment it is.
Fathers and father figures and fatherhood form the traumatic
core of Minding the Gap. Whether by their absence or
presence, they leave a substantial stain on all three and color everything.
Over the course of the film, Kiere grapples with his troubled relationship with
his dad and comes to paradigm-changing realizations, comprehending his history
in ways he never has before. For Zack, becoming a father, that notion and those
responsibilities push him towards a breaking point. Fathers drive this entire
picture.
Liu has a deft sense of narrative. I can’t imagine sifting
through all of this, all of these years of film, to construct a story, let
alone being this connected to the material and subjects. But he handles it
masterfully and never flinches or pulls back from difficult beats even as he fights
with his conflicting roles in the story—is he a friend who owes these people
loyalty or is he a filmmaker who owes it to his film to ask questions that may
damage relationships but serve the movie?
It’s an up and down journey for sure. We get joyous surges
watching Kiere get his shit together and continue to make positive choices. But
there are also crushing defeats, absolute suckerpunches, as Zack sinks deeper
and deeper, until we’re not sure if he can come back, or if he wants to. And
these aren’t characters on a page or someone pretending to be someone else,
these are real people. I’ve seen these kids, I’ve known these kids, I’ve been
these kids, and I’ve watched friends on these same paths.
Even though last time I stepped on a board—at 40 and in
terrible shape—I blew up my knee, more than anything, Minding the
Gap makes me want to skate. Cathartic and exhausting, beautiful and
troubling, hopeful and despairing, heartfelt and heartbreaking, this calls to
mind the best times—also some of the worst, to be honest—of setting out first
thing, skateboard in hand and best friends in tow, just to see what adventures
we’d find. Some of the highlights of my life revolve around sitting in an empty
parking lot, rolling ankles, leaving skin imbedded in concrete, bullshitting
with the people who meant most to me.
The beautiful thing about skateboarding is that it’s whatever
the hell you want it to be, whatever you need it to be. It’s fun to roll around
with your friends and thrilling to hurl yourself down a set of stairs; it gives
you a reason to leave the house and a way to express yourself; it’s therapy, it’s
metaphor, it’s screaming at the top of your lungs, “I’m fucking here.” Kiere
puts it perfectly: “I get mad at skateboarding, a lot, but at the end of the
day, I love it so much I can’t stay mad at it.” It hurts you, but you love it
all the same.
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